I feel stuck.
Stuck in my job. Stuck in my house. Stuck in life.
As much as I know I can’t let IF run my life, it does.
I feel bored at work. There is no challenge anymore. I enjoy it, but I need a challenge. I would love to go back to school and get my EMT. But how can I give up my job where I get paid well and spend $7000 on a diploma with the possibility of a $10,000+ IVF looming in the future?
Ever since we became serious, J and I spent hours talking and dreaming about the day when we could move out to the country. Put a house on an acreage and live happily ever after. We decided to buy a house in town first, fix it up, and sell it. We’ve been in it for 2 years with no new house in sight. How can we think about building a new house in the middle of IF?
My friends lives go on with babies and maternity leaves and playdates. I am left behind.
Stuck.
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I'm sorry. So many times I feel the same way. I'm here for you. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeletethanks for your post--I can really relate! I've been thru several rounds of IVF while everyone around me gets pregnant all the time. The trick is to keep on living because one day you will have a child and will regret all the time wasted obsessing about it--I know, much easier said than done!
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I can relate to those feelings of being left behind and feeling stuck. I'm so sorry you've had to put so many plans on hold and watch others move on. This is definitely a "one day at a time" kind of a struggle, but sometimes you look up and realize that it has turned into years. Sending you hugs today and encouragement to keep on.
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