My heart is aching tonight. I spent way too much time looking at local photographers websites. Beautiful photos of gorgeous children and happy families, and the hole in my heart is causing a lump in my throat. I don't know how I'll ever come to a place where I can say that I've completely given it to God... that I am content... that His will be done.
I know all the right answers... He has a plan.. it will happen in His time... trust... but it's so hard. I'm not asking to win the lottery... I just want a child. Is that so selfish?
I know that everyone goes through trials. As a friend so eloquently put it, "I had a crappy childhood, but I can have babies like nobodies business!" I guess I feel like maybe this trial could be over, and maybe I could get a different one. Or maybe have a trial vacation for awhile.
God, hear my cries...
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I'm so sorry. (((HUGS))) There are so many times I've felt the same way.
ReplyDeleteI dont think asking for a child is not too much to ask. In fact, the Bible says that children are a heritage of the Lord and the fruit of the womb is His reward. Psalm 127:3.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are hurting. I know what you mean about knowing the right answers (and even believing them with all of your heart), and yet still feeling that ache and longing inside. Yes, the reminders are everywhere!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today and praying the Lord will comfort you while you wait.